an open letter to fritz | vol. 6

dear fritz,

my darling boy, you are a study in contrast these days. one moment you are all exuberance and joy, and the very next, stubborn grumpiness. i think they call it “toddlerhood,” but i’m not sure.


last night you said “love  you” for the first time. after an exhaustive wrestling and tickling match, we were laying on the floor in your room—on our tummies with our hands tucked up under us—and i said “love you baby”. you looked me right in the eye and said “love you”. it was the single best moment of my life to date.

you’ve been growing so fast lately. every day it seems like something new is happening with you. just this week you beat me to “three” when i was counting with you. you said “k” and “o” when we were talking about your letters in the bath tub. you are learning (a little too slowly for me) that if you don’t throw your cup on the floor you get a round of applause from mama and dada. i now trust you to walk around the main floor of the house without seriously injuring yourself, all because your balance and judgement have improved vastly. you are currently obsessed with soccer balls and kicking/throwing balls in general. we can’t leave the house without one and you obsessively scream “ball!” wherever we go until we give it to you. you are obsessed with my hair, specifically my pre/post workout ponytail. you plant both of your chubby hands on my cheeks and violently turn my head so that you can get at it and then you bury your face in it and giggle. sometimes you “hug” it. you just started spinning, which is really funny to watch. unfortunately you chose to do this on the one square foot of marble flooring that we have and i live in fear that you will shatter your skull (though you seem completely unconcerned and appear to enjoy being dizzy).


last night i made our “go to” easy and healthy dinner (sweet chili glazed salmon, brown rice, and broccoli) and when you saw it coming toward the table you said “oooooo” and then started licking your lips. you’ve turned into quite the little eater my friend. you destroy your bento boxes each day, often requiring more before you get home, and you’ll eat just about everything i put in front of you. i can not put into words how much i love this about you.

you recently had all four of your first molars come in, and are now getting two of your second molars. the rivers of drool have been epic. men will write tales of your sodden tee shirts and wild mood swings. we should take out stock in infant ibuprofen.

sadly, you also recently had another bout of yeast diaper rash, but this time it was coupled with the dreaded thrush. lucky us! you got over it pretty quickly, but have been in disposable diapers for weeks now. we need to strip and disinfect your beautiful cloth diapers and get you back on the cloth train asap. however, you have this residual rash. i have no idea what it is, and neither does your doctor. she recommended putting neosporin and hydrocortisone on it…so that’s what we are doing. i swear a million little bugs are biting you in your sleep. if i catch them, i’ll kill them. promise.

this weekend we are turning your carseat around, and you will officially be a big boy at 18 months. one and a half years. how did it happen so fast?


until next time…

love you baby,




not the “i’m making bread and this helps it rise” kind of yeast. the “ohmygodwhathappenedtomychildwhilehewassleeping!?” kind of yeast.

the day before our beach trip fritz suddenly developed a yeast diaper rash. i was totally freaked at first, thoughts of “ohmygod, what is wrong with my perfect baby?!” and “what is that!?” were flying through my head. sure, he’d had a diaper rash before (fewer than most, which i attribute to the cloth diapers he wears), but nothing like this. i will spare you a photograph of what a yeast diaper rash looks like, but trust me, it’s…upsetting.

we had already made the decision to use disposable diapers on our beach vacation (this was a tough call for me, but ultimately, the idea of cloth diapering on a plane and at the beach was just too much for me. not to mention doing laundry on vacation…no thanks!) so we just stuck him in those a day early and decided to deal with the diapers when we got home.

the rash seemed to go away very quickly. after frantic calls to my cousin, mother, mother in law, and pediatrician, i determined that a combination of clotrimazole (which is the generic name for the anti-fungal more commonly referred to as lotrimin) and triple paste should do the trick. over the next several days we schmeared those both on at every diapering and also let him air out by not wearing a diaper whenever possible (admittedly most of these occasions were on the beach, but still, we tried) and also made sure he was super try “down there” whenever we put a diaper on. the rash came and went, but did improve. we are still battling this, and i’ve read that vinegar applied directly to the rash helps a lot. has anyone tried this? i’m at a loss as to what to do to finally clear it up.

thing is, we can’t use the cloth diapers that i love so much until it’s gone. the yeast is contagious, which means that we have to do some seriously strict diaper cleaning at casa fritz, and i only want to do that once, thankyouverymuch. just how strict does the diaper cleaning have to be?

well, my research has suggested washing and drying the diapers at a very high heat and using vinegar in the rinse cycle (about 1/2 cup) is a good start. some also implied that the use of grapefruit seed extract would really do the trick (honestly, how do people determine these things? do they just sit around trying anything and everything until something works? who was the first person to try this, and why?) though i have no idea where to procure the stuff locally.

cloth diapers

i’ve put out the bat signal to the local cloth diaper shop for input and suggestions. in the meantime, i’ve done a really hot soak, wash, and dry of all 40 diapers.

cloth diapers soaking

stay tuned for part two of the yeast saga, and feel free to leave comments with suggestions if you have encountered this before. i’d love to have some feedback!

for anyone interested, the diapers pictured are bummis aio ‘easy fit’ pocket diapers. we love them. we’ve tried others (fitted with covers and the infamous bum genius aio’s) but nothing fits as well or is as simple as these. i seriously can’t say enough good things about them.

7.9 haute couture

here is fritz modeling one while playing at his water table last month. they come in super cute colors and patterns, but fritz was feeling classic that day, so we went with white.